Let me introduce myself

I'm a 50 year old woman that has battled many different weights all my life of which most were more than healthy weights. How's that for trying to cushion the blow? Bare with me here...I'm new to this getting real thing and acknowledging my part in it. My weight as of today is 214.5 lbs and my highest weight was 260 lbs. That was before the 1 year of strick Atkins where I dropped down to 209 lbs. Then that following year I only played with Atkins. It was driving me crazy missing the "in season" fruits and so I included them along with my "no serving size is too big" of meats and fats. Well you can only imagine what that did to my weight. Back up to 235 lbs.

As of July 2010 I have been following Sean Anderson's blog and it has SO inspired me. I went back to Day 1 of his journey and I'm reading right through trying to catch up on him. Today I finally got to his one year anniversary of his journey. I've been tempted to skip ahead and read what's going on in his life now but I'm afraid I'll miss out on some vitally important epiphanies. I need all I can get! I have been eating whatever I want within my calorie budget for the day and I am losing. I have had some struggles along the way as I was only counting calories and not exercising and not getting or thinking about the emotional work that is required. One being this blogging stuff. As I'm sure you can tell by now this is not my strong point...writing that is. This is my first attempt. Another first for me today is I finally did something over and above my usual activity in order to start a exercise routine. It sounds pretty pathetic, but I went for a walk at 7 am this morning. I've been putting it off for almost 2 months and today I was disappointed with only a 2 lb loss in 2 weeks so that was enough incentive to get me out there. It felt good too! Surprise! Moving feels good! I'm going to maybe move again later too....outside the house I mean. Maybe another 20 min walk. You see, I'm on holidays right now and I need to use this week wisely to get into the habit of these walks. I'm on my feet all day at work and it doesn't count as exercise even though I'm exhausted at the end of my days so I really need to make this a habit. I think this is going to be the hardest part of my journey. I know though how important it is for me to reach my goal. So onward and downward I go....I hope!